For the past 4 months I’ve been working at Twitter. All I can say about my work is that I’m completely stoked and excited to be working with team I am working with. Most double #awesome. However, these posts are not meant to be about my work. They are here to express my feelings, thoughts, and emotions about life and my own self. Reflections on what has happened, and an outlet to how I am feeling. Certainly work is part of that equation, but as some of my old friends used to say, “You should get a better work/life balance”. Well, consider this part of my “life” balance.
It’s been a while since I’ve written anything here. A lot of things have happened since that time. As mentioned, for the past 4 months I’ve been living in San Francisco. It has been an interesting time. When I was here for my interviews, my feelings about the city were intrigue and a sense of belonging. Once on the ground full time, that feeling very quickly faded. Many of my comfort foods and things were missing. As well, I was missing my friends quite severely. I was missing having a friend close, someone to snuggle up with at the end of a hard day, or someone to explore the city with on a nice weekend. As much as these things pulled at my heart and soul, it was likely a good thing to be alone during this time, as it made me open up to my self, and start listening to myself again.
It is amazing how much of our lives are spent in the pursuit of happiness. I read somewhere that there are religions in this world that equate happiness with the ability to control ones thoughts. With the ability to transcend the everyday, and be completely in tune and in touch with what you are feeling, with what your soul is saying to you. Over the past couple months, I’ve been thinking a lot about happiness and what makes someone happy. When I was barely 20, I asked one of my co-workers and good friends “What makes someone happy, how do you reach a happy state in life?”. His answer has always stuck with me; “I guess it is to be content”. In many ways, that has been the quiet happiness that has permeated the parts of my life that is part of the base level of happiness I feel. However, there is more to life than just a quiet, happy existence.
Some parts of life need to contain an active happiness. A time where you actively feel happy. As hard as moving here on my own and leaving my last life behind has been, it has also been great at allowing to me find this part of me. Being able to reach this part of my being has helped me, and has improved my physical, as well as mental wellbeing…